hi...

hi,,,

u see

things are very unusual at this time

i am her boy

but am i a boy

thats how i sometimes feel

but i dont know if i want to be a boy

hi,,,,

there are times when life is clear

there are times when life is clear - 1

heh heh

ah fuck

if it wasnt for this schmirnoff i'm sure things would make sense.

and to think how much i hate alcohol and what it does to humans.

i'm not a fan of humans.

i like how "the matrix" put it

i do believe we area virus

we do spread and devour all that is available to us.

i used to love the idea of terraforming a planet

but what if we are destroying another life form.

maybe its the alcohol.

do u feel lost in life?

why not turn to religion

base your life on false beliefs and regemented diet of shit and you too can be happy

just send $19.95 to

reverend fuck ass on channel 27 and receive holy water straight from jerulsalem the holy shit/fuck land where people kill themselves over false beliefs

it makes perfect sense to me.

you know what i wonder?

is how politicians cant be truthful.

i guess its just the dog eat dog world.

to reach the top (prime minister/president) you must crush those below you. so those that care and are honest get shitted on.

thats why politics sucks.

thats why this world sucks.

thats why corporate america needs an enima

thats why i love tool

thats why i wait for the meteor

things explode in my head

things hurt me

i care to much for my own good

i am selfish and too caring

i could write forever here and you would run out of shit to read because of boredom

i am on here because the beauty in my life asked me to write.

understand her beauty in her words

behold her in her ways

she has the world on her shoulders and she carries it like a warrior.

i wish i could have her strength

when it comes down to it i love humans even though i hate them. its my caring nature and its why in the "real world" i would be extinct. i hate myself and love others.

is that the way it should be?

am i lost again?

shall i turn to the "higher being"

hahahahahahah

fuck off

learn to swim and be safe at the bottom

one day

all i want to do is to fly

but i guess so does everyone else

be safe

be kind

dont hate me for my insanity

just know that i know.

life is hard

you can try to help

and die helping

but at least you tried

will you remember that in the afterlife?

you will

but you wont look over your own body

for that is long lost

take care

love is a precious thing

do not squander it

forgive me for my spelling

wrong type of mood.

i scare me

i hope i dont scare you

take care

love the ones before it is to late

you will only realize that when it is to late

i havent learned that yet but i know i will

its a shame too.

i dont know

all i know is keep on smiling

smiles carry and can share peace between us beings

i try it 24/7

fuck

i thought i was gonna do something tonight.?